When your whole mission is freedom and you feel the exact opposite.

This is where the rubber hits the road, the point where you are tested with everything you’ve got and you have to use everything you have learnt along the way, all at the same time, with laser focus and intention just to get through another day..

When I was in high school I wrote an English paper on the song “The Climb” by No Doubt. No Doubt was my favourite band, it was my first album purchase. I remember getting it on Christmas Day from my parents and just listening on repeat for days. I still love that album.

That song represents everything about my journey, and so many others right now that are becoming awake, releasing the veils, and actually going for their dreams. At times the journey can be swift, flowing, rocket like. At other times you feel like you might actually die, like you are out of breath, out of juice, out of inspiration and like you are attempting to pioneer something that you’ve totally overestimated how long it would take to make real. 

You go all the way in the opposite direction, and then slowly but surely you climb back. 

Like the lyrics of the No Doubt song:

Step by step I come closer to reaching the top
Every step must be placed so that I don't fall off
Looking down to see about how much higher I am
Another cool wind comes through, brushes my skin
Oh, the harder I push the tension does grow
I gather my thoughts the further and further I go
With some luck I just might keep on climbing
So better to climb than to face a fall (face a fall)

So high the climb (So high the climb)
I can't turn back now
Must keep climbing up to the clouds
So high the climb (So high the climb)
Can't turn back now
Must keep climbing up to the clouds

Says it all really. This may seem dramatic, but I know you, I know you get me.  

So, about a week ago this was my experience - feeling the opposite of free felt like the perfect sensation of anxiety, tightness in chest, lack mentality on repeat, stuck-ness, rejection, feeling unseen, invisible, and a total lack of connection. Almost like I was not actually in my life. I was observing, yet this was the experience. 

In every area there was something. It wasn’t just money, it wasn’t just relationships, It wasn’t just my body, it wasn’t just my emotions, or the sense of insecurity or lack of confidence. It was everything. The entire spectrum of how I look at Inner Freedom had seemingly imploded on me. It was as if I was about to have the biggest reckoning of my soul yet, like now I was going to see what I was really made of, what my healing capacity could alchemise. How was I going to turn this hot mess of an experience into gold, just like I do with my clients?

Every aspect of me was shaken up and cracked apart. It left me so stuck, so out of control. So I processed, and cleared, let go and processed some more - and the penny dropped. I was still playing victim to my life circumstances. Victimhood is an archetype many of us wear as a way of blaming something other than ourselves for what happens to us in life. 

I know my capability as a co-creator of life. I know it is all up to me, yet I was experiencing the polarity of this. The exact opposite.

The essence of the work that I want to bring to the world is a whole new paradigm of empowerment that reinstates our place on earth as master co-creators of our destiny. This is what I know in my bones to be true and real.

We are, I am, master creators. We choose what happens. 

This got me thinking, what really is healing anyway? I asked myself the question and what came was the juice that got me through.

Healing is changing one form, into another. 

Healing is being able to recognise when you are in the thick of a catalyst that can bring you alchemy i.e. changing the makeup of the particular pattern, behaviour, cycle that is playing out on the movie screen of your life - into what you really desire or your higher potential and possibility.

This begs the question, what do I want to change the experience to?

Have you ever noticed how difficult it is to actually claim what you desire in your life? To really name it? Have you noticed that it becomes a lot easier once you know what you do not want in your life? How do we know what we don't want? We've likely just experienced it. When we have the awareness to take that life experience and direct it toward evolution and growth, we start to get how we can create our desires, how to manifest.

What I learnt was I was being tested to actually name, claim and express ultimate freedom as the desire for myself, my soul clients and the wider community. I know that my higher/eternal/soul self was gifting me (my human/ego self) the experience of knowing the total opposite across every area so that I could be crystal clear on what I am not available for, what is no longer acceptable in my sphere and further how I could bring the most juiciest experience to my clients that I myself intimately have gone through. 

So, then begins the alchemy, the changing one substance into another from a place of power, sovereignty, soulful intelligence. 

I remembered once again my innate capacity to heal myself.

I remembered once again that the biggest hurdles take me closer to my true potential on the fastest path possible.

I remembered I am not a victim, and instead I am power-full.

What happens next is like magic. The burning rush of fire-like action moving through my veins. Time to get creating, time to express once more, time to stand out loud and proud UNAPOLOGETICALLY. 

Fear turns into passion.

Doubt turns into conviction.

Unworthiness turns into unconditional love. 

Victimhood turns into sovereignty. 

I’ll be getting deeper into the topic of healing, and how we can really master our reality, at a free info night this Saturday. This is your opportunity to learn about how I create healing for myself and my clients. You will get to understand why healing is no longer a hippie, woo woo, niche experience. You will get to learn that it is simply your time to make change in your life for yourself, your loved ones and the world around you. 

It is time, there is no question. 

Join me Saturday at One Big Heart Yoga, 5pm. To lock in your spot for the free event, go here for more details


If you feel the call to get started now, if you feel you know there is something big bubbling up in you and you feel like I could support you in that, visit my Inner Freedom Journey work here.

Make it your time. Take back the power. 

Love, Amy x